Dear my younger self
Updated: May 3
Image drawn by Lorelei Brooks
Often I am hard on myself, and I know that I am not alone in this. However, it always helps me to remember that I look back on my past self with understanding and sympathy. I am writing this with the hope that whoever is reading it can be more patient with themselves because I know they deserve it.
Dear my younger self, you have now what you didn't have back then. If I were to tell you about where you are today, you would never believe the words that would come out of my mouth. Opportunities you would have never imagined arose and made you the person you are today. Now, you are surrounded by people who love and support you. One day, you will make it out of this. Although the sun isn't always shining, you will learn to survive in the rain. I am proud of you for getting rid of people who made you feel like you are hard to love. You are healing every time you don't think about the people who left.
Dear my younger self, what happened to you was not your fault. You are not a product of your environment. I am proud of you for not giving up because that would have been the easiest option. Instead, you were brave and you survived. I recognize that what you have been through wasn't easy, I've sat through all of your worst days beside you. However, you have grown from it, and I am proud of you for that.
Dear my younger self, you were learning when you drifted off your path. I know how hard you are trying and how difficult every day is. I look back on you with compassion, not guilt. I wish I could give you a hug and tell you, "It's gonna be okay. One day, you will wake up in the morning with a smile on your face and peace in your heart." There are so many more chances to learn from your mistakes in the future, now that you have made them. Every day is a day closer to your success. I'm glad you found your way home.
Dear my younger self, I am here for you now. One day you will learn how to treat yourself gently. You are enough. I love you.
-Lorelei, Artistic Director :)